so disappointed

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 11:30:38 GMT

really really let myself down, i didnt stick to my liquid fast,
i've been putting too much pressure on myself to lose weight,
i know that if i was thin, especially for my birthday i would be so proud and happy so would mum, im not thinking about others,
i just want to so this for myself
i've lost all self control and power, i binge binge binge and can't even make mia feel proud of me,
i hate this,
i've let myself go. everyone loves my friends my sisters are stunnning and im...me, fat spotty ugly overweight
i feel sick when i look at myself, how could any1 love that

i need to be stronger,
11.26 and iv not had anything so far but its during the day that it takes its toll.
I've been so stressed on uni work that i just eat for the sake of it, and i haven't been able to get to the gym coz of doin essays

i wish i could love myself, i know i can but only if a lose weight and keep losing until im like my friends, then people will look at me, and notice me.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 23:56:20 GMT

plan
11th- 21st October-liquid fast

gonna be tough but gotta think thin

its been so rubbish latley i don't know whats happened to me, i was so happy, not eating going to gym,
now iv lost it, i can't let this happen, i need to get back on track, i need to be in control again

be happy xx

rubbish

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 22:53:45 GMT

any1 up for water fasting?

anyone else up for a great wknd!!

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 00:14:15 GMT

i'm so excited for a good wknd!

think think think...thin

so disappointed

rubbish

anyone else up for a great wknd!!