really really let myself down, i didnt stick to my liquid fast,
i've been putting too much pressure on myself to lose weight, 
i know that if i was thin, especially for my birthday i would be so proud and happy so would mum, im not thinking about others,
i just want to so this for myself
i've lost all self control and power, i binge binge binge and can't even make mia feel proud of me, 
i hate this, 
i've let myself go. everyone loves my friends my sisters are stunnning and im...me, fat spotty ugly overweight
i feel sick when i look at myself, how could any1 love that 

i need to be stronger, 
11.26 and iv not had anything so far but its during the day that it takes its toll.
I've been so stressed on uni work that i just eat for the sake of it, and i haven't been able to get to the gym coz of doin essays

i wish i could love myself, i know i can but only if a lose weight and keep losing until im like my friends, then people will look at me, and notice me.

Current Location: bedroom

Current Mood: cranky

plan
11th- 21st October-liquid fast 

gonna  be tough but gotta think thin 


its been so rubbish latley i don't know whats happened to me, i was so happy, not eating going to gym,
now iv lost it, i can't let this happen, i need to get back on track, i need to be in control again 


be happy xx

Current Mood: aggravated

any1 up for water fasting?

i'm so excited for a good wknd!